Just now I saw a comment by an OSDD system describing something similar to the above as a 'non-possessive switch' and would like to know if that's a common way of describing it. This can occur slowly, with obvious signs, or very fast. antipsychotics don't do shit for me, and they can control my body to a limited extent (stuff like raising an arm or making me pee). It is also what happens in practice: very few people would realistically distinguish between DID and OSDD. Well, how can I know it's switching or alters or something like that? Both full switches and "partial intrusions" of alters are described in more detail by Dell in the paper"A New Model of Dissociative Identity Disorder". What will whole be like? We wanted to help make sysboxes you don't usually see, especially with most system user box blogs run by endos.our main is @friends-call-me-snow-miser (if we reply to comments) and our system blog is @fromthewondersystem mod wonder All content on this website is provided for the purpose of general information only. they're pure fucking evil and have ruined me in more ways than i can count but that's not the point. We also use third-party cookies that help us analyze and understand how you use this website. Switches can be consensual, forced, or triggered. For example, ducks at the pond could be a trigger for a 7 year old alter to push their way to front, or someone calling who is a special friend for one alter in particular might trigger that alter to switch out. like, don't get me wrong, i get where you're trying to come from, but understanding the reasons for their abuse isn't really something i get the chance to center when i have no cognitive or emotional space to process their actions. Highly recommend reading. My system usually falls into that categoryits OSDD 1b I think? This website was last updated 11/29/2022. I think psychology is so huge that its hard for every therapist to know and recognize everything, especially because there are so many specializations. Out of these cookies, the cookies that are categorized as necessary are stored on your browser as they are essential for the working of basic functionalities of the website. In this article were using the terms interchangeably whilst mainly using the term OSDD for brevity. They have similar names but not the same names .. Caring was beyond me, only existing moment to moment, hoping not to be hurt anymore, drifting deeper into insanity. They are in no way associated with ddlg/clg/cgl-re. Mostly male EPs but a good number of female ones. Normally, a reed switch is constructed of two thin metal strips, or reeds, which are sealed in a glass tube. You may disable these by changing your browser settings, but this may affect how the website functions. Welcome to r/OSDD, a community for those affected by otherwise specified dissociative disorder. A common identifier in the OSDD community is the idea of OSDD-1a and OSDD-1b, the theoretically two boxes that OSDD systems fall into, depending on what criteria they dont quite match. It is rarely accompanied by an alter changing what clothing the system is wearing, announcing themselves in public, or extreme whiplashes in behavior or personality. Ive never been diagnosed, so I have no clear answer on this, but I do identify with your definition of dissociative amnesia, rather than how its usually interpreted to be. Indeed, Spiegel et al (2011, p.841) point out the inherent flaws in the current diagnostic criteria for dissociative disorders and say: If the diagnostic criteria for dissociative identity disorder were changed to reflect the typical clinical presentation of DID (ie a complex dissociative presentation with no confirmed alter identities), these complex DDNOS patients would meet diagnostic criteria for DID. We see the presence of these dissociative parts of the personality as really important, and of course it is the stand-out feature of DID, but we also recognise that parts develop in response to trauma and disorganised attachment, as do a whole range of other symptoms. Slow switches are usually consensual switches in which two or more alters are co-conscious to varying degrees and slowly blending and retreating to allow one alter to gain prominence. At the same time, however, it is important to note that there are differences between someone whose constellation of symptoms would identify them as being at the DID end of the spectrum, and someone whose similar but slightly different set of responses might place them at the OSDD end of the spectrum. You might hear voices, such as voices arguing or commenting on your actions. yes, if you have amnesia between switches, even if it's not 100% amnesia or 100% all of the time it is still DID not osdd-1b though it may depend on who diagnosis you as there is a grey area. Im here looking for answers, because its all so confusing. It gives a great summary of all of the research into how DID develops and functions. People with dissociative identity disorder have at least two distinctly different identities, but some believe as many as 100 can emerge. then people in this range of the spectrum can feel unheard, unvalidated and as if they are the only one suffering with the symptoms they have. They cant be allowed to take over. A hurricane raging above. What I find really hard though is when I'm faced with evidence of them actually having switched out and done things. Barely alive, existing moment to moment, knowing I was different than others but not why I was different. But if up to three times as many people receive a diagnosis of OSDD/DDNOS compared to dissociative identity disorder, it would suggest that the definition of DID is too narrow. I too was committed to a psychosis ward and schizophrenia was ruled out. Since DID/OSDD are more complex forms of PTSD, you or other alters might experience the symptoms of complex PTSD. It can be highly disorienting for those involved and can interfere with memory formation, concentration, and remaining covert (that is, not appearing visibly mentally ill to others). (DNI: If you have been blocked, please do not interact. In the meantime, we will be continuing to push the idea that dissociation is truly a spectrum disorder! it quickly developed into them trying to traumatize me as much as possible to "break me" so they could "re-make" me as a person they'd want to have as their host. I don't have OSDD/DID, but on two occasions where I was in an unsafe and triggering situation, the first time I turned into this older masculine and calm dude, the second (yesterday ago heh) into this caring 40yo+ female motherly figure. [1] Along with Unspecified Dissociative Disorder it replaces the diagnosis of Dissociative Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (DDNOS). Non-switching systems, or partial DID as it's called in the ICD, are systems who have an alter always remain in front, and other alters can "only" exert passive influence and co-fronting. Now it is me, us, we and I. Thank you for writing this, it helps a lot. So to answer your original question: yes, at least for some time this was very much my experience. In OSDD-1, severe childhood trauma causes different identities, known as alternate states of consciousness (alters) to form. The belief that DID is iatrogenic rather than trauma-based. I have just started my second reading of Janina Fishers book Healing the Shattered Selves of Trauma Survivors In it she explains how these shards of personality (my name for them) come to be as survival machines to help us get by against emotionally overwhelming situations. That includes what causes it, factors that influence its presentation, how alters are created, how switching works, all the current science behind this stuff, etc. Watching a show to kill time, I felt like I was 12 again, staying up and watching a show in my phone knowing I should be asleep. No two people with DID or OSDD are going to be exactly the same; I think that goes for any mental disorder. For us, our system has gone through a lot of changes in the 11 years we've known about it. But what is also there is that when, for example in conversation with a psychologist in the past, when he indicates that its just mood switching, I kind of start to feel hurt and unvalidated, as if parts of me, or moods want to be acknowledged separately, my angry mood gets angry because Im not the vulnerable self or Im not that weak, fearful, kind side of myself. Certainly where private therapy is being sought and there is no need for a definitive statement on some official piece of paper or medical record, this may be the preferable option for a large number of people. The important thing is that the labels people give themselves are helpful to them, to meet their specific needs. It felt like me, and I lost control over the body for a few seconds in both situations, but I was told all this could just be derealization or 1000 other things, and I wouldn't be surprised at all. I'm usually ok with this sort of contact with my alters, even when what they are leaking through to me and making me have to experience is painful things like flashbacks or difficult emotions, although some of them think and feel in ways that conflict with my personal morals which can be difficult to accept. I don't think you always cofronting is a problem, I've heard of it before. The No. What are the rules for your outside relationships? Right now OSDD sounds like hypochondriac or DID wannabe and Its not like that at all! Were not doctors or clinicians and our nonprofit, our work, and this website in no way provide medical advice, nor does it replace therapy or medication in other ways. More common is amnesia for past trauma, although parts often seem to have memory for this. I appreciate it and will share it on my tumblr. It is usually a defensive response to anything the system deems threatening. Furthermore, these are common but not required; a person does not need to experience all of these things to have DID/OSDD. But other people with OSDD do indeed have less obviously distinct parts of the personality and report feeling perplexed when they read about people with DID talking about their 4-year-old part called Alice or their 6-year-old boy part called Ricky. You might feel confused or distressed that your physical body does not reflect how you feel you should look. Passive influence is more common than switching, and it is more covert and harder to notice. I dont related in any intimate way to friends or lovers I remain unattached and dont know how to be intimate or close to anyone .. These intrusions may also cause the fronting alter to gain skills and abilities that they do not usually have (such as public speaking despite normally suffering from, Both full switches and "partial intrusions" of alters are described in more detail by Dell in, "I have one particular child alter who has a very good sense of humour, and part of his role is to help us experience enjoyment and lift our mood. which is widely accepted at the moment, endogenic systems, who form later on in life, are impossible. I have experiences like this when the one who normally "drives" gets booted out of the driver's seat when another one of us has such overwhelming emotions that they take over. I can watch everything that Im saying and doing, but its like I cant do anything about it and I dont know whats going to happen next. Memory gaps You might find that your memory is unreliable. I dont know where I fit, but I do feel as if what you describe here is the nearest I have heard yet even then I doubt. I've had 2 non-switching alters for at least 9 years now. It does so much for you, and you deserve to have a break! that especially back in the days was full of shame and self-loathing. We have touched on two major differences already less elaboration or switching to distinct parts, and less amnesia. You might feel afraid or shamed of the possibility of others finding out your thoughts. You might have difficulty being aware of your own symptoms or describing the severity of them. There are 4 types of OSDD, but the most common is OSDD-1 which is similar to DID. I would also like to thank you. Switches can be slow, quick, or uncontrollably rapid. The primary symptom of dissociative disorders, of course, is dissociation. Other times, it feels.like a switch flicking in my brain and then the feeling that if that part were not a part of my life, it would.be leading a completely different life. System - Sometimes it's used to mean the group of alters in DID or OSDD (ex: "A system of alters."). this is the first time I have had someone accurately articulate my experience. In other words, someone with OSDD has dissociative symptoms but they do not meet sufficient criteria to be diagnosed with either depersonalisation disorder, dissociative amnesia, dissociative fugue or dissociative identity disorder. We will try to explain our experience with . Enough to bring an adult to his knees, let alone what the poor child had to live thru. (PLEASE dont use this list to diagnose yourself. Feeling those feelings, thinking the thoughts of that child and feeling his body as it had been used. There are four presentations of OSDD listed in the DSM-5: In practice, subtype 1 is much more common than the others. Its really weird. I also feel constantly that I have no right to this. She asked me to sketch the parts I am aware of, so I did. Others might tell you that you sometimes act very differently, almost like different people. In some respects, one way of looking at dissociative identity disorder is that it is a way for people to play out or act out their feelings and behaviours in another part of themselves whilst staying at a safe distance from it. I find it very hard to have any empathy whatsoever for my abusers, nor should I need to. Were not doctors or clinicians and our nonprofit, our work, and this website in no way provide medical advice, nor does it replace therapy or medication in other ways. People with OSDD need to understand that their experiences are valid and real and not inferior in any way to people with dissociative identity disorder. (the latter will also bring up a lot of worker/management negotiation stuff too. Clinicians have also noted difficulties that arise in therapy for people with OSDD, as opposed to DID. Furthermore, where there is a high level of co-consciousness between different self-states in OSDD, there is a lower risk of self-harming episodes where the adult host has (dangerously) no awareness at all of what has happened. 1Solicide System- Nx #2||entropy systemOSDDDID||DissociaDID . Then me, some with names and them. Because I only struggle to remember when recollecting, and there is plenty of downtime between events in my brain that I just dont remember at all, and my recollection is out of order. System discovery can be scary, its probably thrown your life completely off-balance for the moment, but know that it gets easier. In fact, OSDD is meant to be a broad category that encompasses many "partial DID" experiences. thank you so much. I can tell which part feels what and they do have names but because I dont switch or have amnesia and its mostly passive influence, I struggle to know if its just me interpreting something if that makes sense (my partner is in a DID system so I know what that end of the spectrum looks like but struggle to know where I fall.). I have terrible memory too and sometimes I think my alters play as me and I don't even know when ive switched. You are part of a strong community with a rich history and wonderful people. According to Van der Hart et als structural model of dissociation (The Haunted Self, 2006), dissociative identity disorder is a case of tertiary dissociation with multiple ANPs and multiple EPs, whereas OSDD is a case of secondary dissociation with a single ANP and multiple EPs. Instead of an alter switching to front, they can exert passive influence on the alter currently at front. A body with multiple identities is known as a system. I don't think of things as like.. they "will get better" but moreso that they will change, and that is something to aim for. Required fields are marked *. In fact, there actually isnt a 1a or 1b in the DSM-V, its a community holdover from the outdated terms DDNOS-1a/1b. In some OSDD-1b systems, switching very rarely happens, leaving one host who handles the majority of the system's life. The Alexandrite System are 25 activists, content creators, and intra-community educators in one body. I would love to feel I knew what I was and that I could give a name to something. All content relatable to the DID experience is on topic. Sometimes for a split second, sometimes for hours, sometimes for a day. There are 4 types of OSDD, but the most common is OSDD-1 which is similar to DID. The Dissociative Identity Disorder Sourcebook by Haddock, Deborah Bray on understanding DID. they've taken that from me, and i'm not going to be able to meet them with understanding in the face of unrelenting abuse. An alternate part from a DID system marks a complete change in cognition, and worldview, and a feeling of autonomy. All of these points present certain issues for people with the OSDD label. According to the American Psychological Association, the predominant feature of OSDD is: presentations in which symptoms characteristic of a dissociative disorder that cause clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning predominate, but do not meet the full criteria for any of the disorders in the dissociative disorder class. If they have names they probably have a separate sense of self. Other specified dissociative disorder ( OSDD) is a mental health diagnosis for pathological dissociation that matches the DSM-5 criteria for a dissociative disorder, but does not fit the full criteria for any of the specifically identified subtypes, which include dissociative identity disorder, dissociative amnesia, and The good news is that 1a and 1b are not the only categories for OSDD systems. all they are, and all they have ever been, is my abusers. I go by he/them pronouns. But for us, we have a few different internal feels when switching. Welcome to /r/AskDID, the sister subreddit of /r/DID which focuses on those that wish to ask questions about Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), Other Specified Dissociative Disorder (OSDD) etc. The belief that DID treatment is harmful to patients. Where are my memories? Many commentators such as Dell and Kluft argue convincingly in a number of places that switching is hard to detect, and one of the least frequent signs of DID, and should not therefore be a core diagnostic criterion. A subtype of consensual switches are planned switches that were agreed upon ahead of time. Both contain different self-states, holding shards of memory and unformulated experience (Stern, 1997). These cookies do not store any personal information. I remember what they shared during those times, but I am quick to shut them up. Our experience is less like switching places with a person, and more like becoming a different person. These systems do not experience clinically significant amounts of amnesia, more commonly having emotional amnesia. For more information on the data that this website collects and how to opt out, please visit the Privacy Policy page. Sometimes might you feel like you are watching yourself, as if you are having an out of body experience. So, they want to share what happened and how they felt, but I can only handle small doses. Fragments of self falling off, taking bits of memory with each of them. Of course they are not, and their experience is valid exactly because it is their experience. they aren't any more traumatized than me, in fact, after what they've put me through, i'd say they're less, and they still manage to be the most vile people i've ever had the misfortune to encounter. But mostly the books above ^. The disorder and symptoms manifest in childhood, always. Sometimes this may result in an unsafe or distressing situation. They dedicate their time to documenting their plural journey and showing others that you can live a great life with OSDD. Welcome to r/OSDD, a community for those affected by otherwise specified dissociative disorder. Whole is terrifying! Triggered switches are especially likely to be quick, but too many triggers or too much overall stress can also lead to rapid cycling. I think there is some dissociation there. For DID awareness day, I want to bring awareness to the vast spectrum of DID and OSDD symptoms. In order to receive a diagnosis for dissociative identity disorder, you must display Recurrent gaps in the recall of everyday events, important personal information, and/or traumatic events that are inconsistent with ordinary forgetting. In clinical circles, it is often taken to mean amnesia between parts, so that if the apparently normal personality (ANP) is fully co-consciousness for what other parts are saying and doing (especially the emotional personalities or EPs) then that is not full DID. well, its both. Like all other alters, non-human alters are the result of trauma and an already severely dissociative mind. Previously called MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder), this disorder is categorized by the action of switching . Create an account to follow your favorite communities and start taking part in conversations. (And if parts are integrating or fusing during therapy, at what point should you likewise shift along the spectrum and change your diagnostic classification?) It would cause misunderstandings as I would present myself as very angry and fearless, laughing at everything and at another moment I would be extremely fearful and could not handle anything that would stir up trauma again. The experience of someone with OSDD may be fewer of these extremes, without the deep lows of trauma states of being, but also without the extreme competency of some of the avoidance-based adult parts of a DID system. I cannot describe the relief we felt knowing that there was a category of systems explicitly for those who did not fit neatly into the DID criteria. But when I am in the dark side it is like the most whole part, yet I function in the light part. they do have an internal monologue but they are not suffering from DID, do they only have one voice/identity? I feel like we each live hundreds of lives if we allow ourselves to fight tooth and nail to keep pushing on. ", This website uses cookies in order to analyze visitor trends. Many people assume that DID and OSDD are such extreme rollercoaster disorders when thats usually not the case for any mental disorder! The DSM-5 adds some detail to it, saying: This category includes identity disturbance associated with less-than-marked discontinuities in sense of self and agency, or alterations of identity or episodes of possession in an individual who reports no dissociative amnesia. In other words, OSDD often presents as not yet or not quite DID people who havent yet met the criteria for dissociative identity disorder but may well do so in the future, or people who have slightly atypical forms of DID, for example by not having amnesia. The alters within the system may have contradicting thoughts, preferences, and opinions. A mere speck floating in an ocean of pain, sinking deeper and deeper into the waters, only a bare existence was possible. All of this therefore begs the question of whether or not it is worth getting a diagnosis, and whether a differential diagnosis between DID and OSDD has any value. This may manifest as ego-alien thoughts, feelings, emotions, opinions, preferences, urges, or actions. In Dissociative Identity Disorder, switching between parts is a hallmark feature, but it may happen without awareness. I can just stare and stare at my watch and I know I should be able to figure it out but I just cant. Paul Dell (Dell & O'Neil, 2009) argues convincingly that the externally-observable 'signs' of switching between personality states are only a very small part of what dissociative identity disorder is like in practice . Maybe not right away, but eventually. The same cannot be said for OSDD. Thats not really how DID and OSDD work. To read more about the cookies we use, please read our privacy policy here. Create an account to follow your favorite communities and start taking part in conversations. (Disclaimer: I'm not a professional; please do not ask me for medical advice! the thing is, they can't front, like, ever. I hope I did not break any rules above! Everything in the system happens for a reason, even if we do not know what it is. Then e switched again once morning was drawing close. Rapid cycling, sometimes called rolledexing or carousel-switching, is when multiple alters are shoved to front in quick succession. (https://twitter.com/theringssystem/status/1325605823373074433?lang=en). This can involve several alters fronting over the course of an hour or even within a few minutes! People with OSDD may for example have had some good enough attachment experiences, or other mitigating factors. See Integrated Family Systems (IFS) and Somatic Experiencing (SE) for two of the main modalities that used Parts Mediation. Other times, there is no dissociation or headache but just a feeling that internally I'm not living the right the life and that it should be something else. no such thing as an outlier when everyone is so different lol. Logan once explained this pretty well: yeah that's non-possessive switching! And what about instances of amnesia about amnesia how do you know that you have amnesia for something if youve forgotten that it happened in the first place?! I have DID & PTSD. and i'm stuck with them every hour that i'm awake. For example Colin Ross (2007, p.142) says: The dividing line between DID and most cases of dissociative disorder not otherwise specified is arbitrary. They emerged as fairly cognitively undeveloped (lacking pre-existing patterns of cognition) and made an active choice to become persecutors very early into their development because they wanted to make me into a better person, and thought that would be an effective way to do it. Instead of an alter switching to front, they can exert passive influence on the alter currently at front. Necessary cookies enable core functionality such as security, network management, and accessibility. And, either way, theres not going to be a simpler, or at least different, solution to stopping the CPTSD hijackings and days of disorientation. This author does not have any more posts. onset of diagnosable symptoms can occur much later in life. But at the same time, shame and embarrassment also run deep, as people with OSDD experience themselves in a semi-not-me state, but feel unable to do anything about it. In terms of other differences, it seems that as a general rule the degree of the trauma or attachment difficulties leading to OSDD will be less severe than people who are diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder, especially polyfragmented dissociative identity disorder. Has anyone researched whether, for example, potentially everyone has many voices/identities in their head, but never considered this an issue? The ICD-10 description of dissociative identity disorder is not based on an understanding of DID as a childhood-onset, complex, posttraumatic developmental disorder. It may be important for some people with OSDD to distinguish their experience from that of people with dissociative identity disorder and it would be good for people in this category to come forwards and write about their experience to help people, clinicians in particular, understand the unique characteristics of life with OSDD. Dissociation is weird. You might experience hallucinations or delusions, usually related to past trauma. Association is the first and only grassroots, volunteer and peer-led nonprofit empowering Plurals. Check this PDF for the symptoms of C-PTSD. Emotional neglect can lead to a pretty profound disconnection from yourself; depersonalization, depression, a sense of purposelessness. Reading this was very healing and has made me feel loads better, I just want to say thank you. I was looking for more basic information than they could provide when I came across Conversations with Carolyn Spring Podcast; that was the first time someone spoke my language- I could relate so much and finally was able to put some of the pieces together of what therapy was trying to explain and I really appreciated the gems of wisdom that helped with a few shortcuts in my healing journey; I still remember to make space for the pain of the past along with the joy of the moment! 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